I never wanted a relationship,to many bad ones behind me.i just needed to focus on me and get my life together.then I met Louie ,he was almost perfect.so we started see each other .during the three years it was good and bad ...but we were connected and we could make it together .but unfortunately for me the grass has always been greener ....I never realized how much until I left two months ago .I thought despite him working to what now seems was to destroy me...first my business it took me eleven months to get going good .I was finally in a better place for the first time since my dad died.louie was getting out of PRISION and had changed and promised to never treat me as he had in the past ...I fell for every word...I shouldn't have.first it was my business that with his help telling me to borrow this and that he got me,dont worry.well I now owe 356.00...my accounts suspended so I'm back to recycling.and resale and flea markets.im exhausted heartbroken ,depressed ...and if that wasn't enough the same man who hadn't left me alone in years just stopped .when I was in that better place he was calling me all the time ,too much.telling me how he missed me implying that I was here in San Jo having affairs the entire time ...I was doing no such thing...we had a big fight ..well let me start from where it started getting bad he was drinking a lot again ,he was back to yelling and telling me how tired he was of living like this yet he had just pretty much destroyed all I had worked so hard to establish .he was starting to act lime he was screwing around again .he did that ALOT in the past .he has a big sexual appitite and I don't think I was ever gonna be enough..then I found out the worst thing you could ever think or hear that he had another women on the side for longer than our three years.i felt like my heart was ripped out of my chest.heartbreak sometimes makes you feel like you could die .anyways so it turns out the bitch has been forcing him the entire time to act this way and filling his head with lies about me when I really loved him and wanted me and him for the rest of my life.she is a hateful women who's seems more then obsessed and used Louie to hurt me by threating him ,what a mess.he was trying to hide what had happened what he had done.so she made me find out hearing this ,and pretending she had won.now it's been three months since I left and what and how things have changed .finally he sees how I am instead of just getting the blame .I hope our love can make I hope it will survive it's not often you meet a man who makes everything seem alright.we are comparable and comfortable and enjoy the same things in life.and if he can rid himself of her influence we would live a beautiful life.
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