you stupid wite gurl putting all you feelings out there for everyone to see telling your side how it looks from here

Maybe I am really crazy or wrong ...but I DOSENT feel like that .

I know I say what I shouldn't but this really hurts

The ones punished and labeled so bad were protecting us wether they knew it or not .because they are good men who helped and chose not to treat us badley or bully us or scare us or worse ...but I imagine everyone blamed them right ....? Anyways my imagination gets my brain exaggerated maybe but not like a lie ...just another guess ...another worse case scenario came true ...two or three laughing it up about how they get over on us ...how we are gonna be the ones without money ...and we're gonna be ghetto on the streets ...do they know what they are doing ? How FUCKING wrong ...the only way he could have helped me and my girls and nobody not one said to help out me and my kids with our money. ..good women are as horrified as we are ...how could they do this ....we never did anything to anyone ...we never disrupted or interfered with others life's ..we never meant to burden anyone and I don't see how ...how could they know they have ended my life ...and not even care ..they want to blame my kid ...she would never ...even after I left her over and over when she needed me ...just to make me look bad ...they never thought I was that ....they just wanted me to look my worst ..a mother running off because Louie came when called ain't that a bitch .a man without conscious told what to do .by his female friends and partners .women he trusted .who were filled with so much jealously and hatred what else could he feel .he has no empathy .but you sure don't either .my father wanted me to save face more then anything else ...he knew I would be looked down opan.when I shouldn't have been .I did with help everything to keep my family safe ...then they just fucked everything up ..acting as if I'm wrong ..and it's my fault .they wouldn't even give him good loving advice .they couldn't ...too jealous how sad really .they didn't love him enough to let him maybe be happy .that wasn't want they wanted .to show me up ...say how my mother didn't teach me to take care of myself that I'm whatever .I'm a survivor you have no idea what we have had to go through to be accepted ...and then you do this and I'm back worse then ever ..still on the street ...still struggling to get my shit together because I was in the street just like others and worse then others ...I had to do things just to prove I was trustable solid and everyone showed love and helped ..it was love and I saw my kids and my friends .we weren't looked down upon and the ones who stole were her friends not mine to put a problem in between me and my dad and we wouldn't let them .we didn't care .they are doing it worse with my mother ..we just want to be a family again .without all you nosey ass people looking at what we do ...or what we have ...your in our business all of it it's invasion of my privacy and survalance should have been on someone but not me ..who was it suppose to be on ? I love my family my mother my son my grandkids I haven't even gotten to see because of problems .problems that they convinced my mother of but guess what .they say they brainwash you off guilt .no wonder it doesn't work 

2023 and it is still us.....getting blamed,getting put up for death,getting sperated harassed.getting abused mistreated and disrespected .by everyone

I am begening to understand why the MAFFIA FORMED .because of this people like these people who think we're lower class my father was American ,military ,a professor . Nobody ever in all my life has been so cruel to our family .lying to us keeping us separated .making it so we can't talk or spend time together .slandering us .I know why because there afraid .they don't want me to know what they have done .these lowlifes still 30 plus years later still disrespecting my entire family .this is un FUCKING believable we can't do anything because we've been getting the blame ,we've been getting threatened and stolen from my family protected me .because they knew if I found out all the awful things you have done to my innocent family that you had no right to ever do to us .you pretend you care and your friends and do gooders and you aren't you are greedy ,mean ,terrible people that put your every mistake on us ....your failures your .mistakes your choices that had nothing to do with me ever and that's destroyed as well .all plan ,conspiring to put me and Louie against each other to get us broken up .after my family had forgiven him for whatever had happened and they wanna ruin it all and blame us once again for money.in the 1980s I was 14 .they stole my money .I was in pine mountain lake no idea why still don't really know I guess because we were so nice ...and didn't snitch or bother anyone .we just wanted to be like everyone else ...now I have no idea why we would ever want that .so we could work without getting sick ...and now it's so obvious they don't even care about that .they have already killed us we're walking corpses .do you know what it feels like to know your kids need you your mother needs you .we aren't bad people these LOOSERS pretend to be friends and are not .I hope your coming it's Saturday night .to stick up for us again .because these people lie .they only care about THEMSELFS they see us like aliens worth ALOT as long as we're in our cages and there for them to pretend to care for ...the last of a dying breed .I cry thinking how my father would never well did his best to keep these people off us never giving them money ...they are ruining everything for us ...my daughter's life's cut short ,my life treated like I deserve this and we didn't deserve our money when that's what he was suppose to do was help us ...they are all too greedy and jealous to let us have any of it . .maybe they heard and are coming to pick up her her sister and her friend ...to pay there debt to us and them.because you know what there doing as if my daughter would ever have to ever sink that low at such a young age ...makes me want to kill them all .how dare they take my innocent baby girl and ever scare or disrespect or care nothing if she gets cancer as long as they have a way to continue to get money ...I know they will pay for all of this and all they have done .this is too awful to speak ...this is unimaginable what they have done ...all righteous calling me a child molester I'm NOT THAT !!they only had me around for excusing there behavior and using me for money lying to my mother ..pretending I'm dangerous or crazy or mean .she knows my mother knows me .my daughter's know me ...they fucked up and I guess I can't wish revenge on them for sacrificing our life's to makes there's better ...they switched us I guess ..he did this to them and they were mad so they found someone they thought an easy target ...a stupid girl ,with stupid parents .