I know I say what I shouldn't but this really hurts

The ones punished and labeled so bad were protecting us wether they knew it or not .because they are good men who helped and chose not to treat us badley or bully us or scare us or worse ...but I imagine everyone blamed them right ....? Anyways my imagination gets my brain exaggerated maybe but not like a lie ...just another guess ...another worse case scenario came true ...two or three laughing it up about how they get over on us ...how we are gonna be the ones without money ...and we're gonna be ghetto on the streets ...do they know what they are doing ? How FUCKING wrong ...the only way he could have helped me and my girls and nobody not one said to help out me and my kids with our money. ..good women are as horrified as we are ...how could they do this ....we never did anything to anyone ...we never disrupted or interfered with others life's ..we never meant to burden anyone and I don't see how ...how could they know they have ended my life ...and not even care ..they want to blame my kid ...she would never ...even after I left her over and over when she needed me ...just to make me look bad ...they never thought I was that ....they just wanted me to look my worst ..a mother running off because Louie came when called ain't that a bitch .a man without conscious told what to do .by his female friends and partners .women he trusted .who were filled with so much jealously and hatred what else could he feel .he has no empathy .but you sure don't either .my father wanted me to save face more then anything else ...he knew I would be looked down opan.when I shouldn't have been .I did with help everything to keep my family safe ...then they just fucked everything up ..acting as if I'm wrong ..and it's my fault .they wouldn't even give him good loving advice .they couldn't ...too jealous how sad really .they didn't love him enough to let him maybe be happy .that wasn't want they wanted .to show me up ...say how my mother didn't teach me to take care of myself that I'm whatever .I'm a survivor you have no idea what we have had to go through to be accepted ...and then you do this and I'm back worse then ever ..still on the street ...still struggling to get my shit together because I was in the street just like others and worse then others ...I had to do things just to prove I was trustable solid and everyone showed love and helped ..it was love and I saw my kids and my friends .we weren't looked down upon and the ones who stole were her friends not mine to put a problem in between me and my dad and we wouldn't let them .we didn't care .they are doing it worse with my mother ..we just want to be a family again .without all you nosey ass people looking at what we do ...or what we have ...your in our business all of it it's invasion of my privacy and survalance should have been on someone but not me ..who was it suppose to be on ? I love my family my mother my son my grandkids I haven't even gotten to see because of problems .problems that they convinced my mother of but guess what .they say they brainwash you off guilt .no wonder it doesn't work